Destroying the Ego and Rebuilding a Script
So, the 5th draft of my script is done – and it’s been a long, tiring, at times painful but overall rewarding experience.
The main reason for the array of emotions is due to the fact that this was the biggest rewrite I’ve ever had to do. I cut of 5 characters and tinkered with the story and structure, and in order to manage this and facilitate the changes that needed to be made, I had to work out a new process and that took some time.
Basically, when I’d finished the 4th draft of Shot, I was convinced it was 99% finished, but after some good feedback and some honest thinking, a chain reaction of thoughts occurred which led me to a realisation that the main story was too convoluted and lacked the strength it needed. Rather than just a bit of hammering and chiselling, a wrecking ball was needed. It was scary and daunting, but I knew it was the right thing to do.
The wrecking ball was unleashed and I was left with a pile of rubble that used to be a coherent script.
The hardest part was accepting I’d made some poor decisions which led to the convolution of the story. Admitting you are wrong is tough, especially when you’ve been in a position where you believe what you’ve written is strong. But then, that is the ego doing what it knows.
Destroying the ego is hard but necessary and leads to enlightenment as to what is truly important. This was a key step for me and one that will leave me in good shape going forward with any project I work on in the future.
So I began the rebuild, going ‘back to basics’ and ensuring I was focused on what was essential; the plight of the character, his journey and how he copes and evolves. And now, after many weeks of note taking, screwed up bit of paper, diagrams, charts, cut out bits of paper, blue tack, hours bashing away at the keyboard and what was probably a close to lethal amount of caffeine, the 5th draft is done.
As it stands, the script is leaner, more focused and more dynamic than it was, but I imagine it will need another one or two drafts to perfect, polish and make it shine. However, I now find myself in the Twilight Zone of writing. That area when you are still way too close to the material, lack objectivity and have no idea if what you’ve written is any good. Its a time when rational thinking isn’t always your best friend….
….but I plan to not think about Shot for a few days. The sun is shining here so I’m going for a walk and spend some time in the real world. And besides, I think there some football on TV later today…